For twenty years I have been married
to a morning. Of blue sky that stretches
and pulls across me like water filling up
a suburban swimming pool. The pit that
formed a hole. The bodies falling down
as if bloodless dolls instead of kneecaps
and muscle shins and thighs hot fingers
letting go of metal or chests and ribs an
artery that runs down the length of a leg
like a hose cheeks that hold in teeth and
tongues jaw and soft palates or a brain
inside of a skull. How the sky was full of
bodies so many falling thoughts fell down
or how the word land crashes and breaks
breaks and breaks apart on impact. How
the day still drowns me.
Today my husband is crouched in our
garden calves flexed. Today I reach out
and I run my fingers across broad fields
of skin between the shoulders. Shoulders
of my two sons. And I know.
How I know beneath.
We are bones.
This is beautiful and so sad, Amalie. Married to a morning. What a heartbreaking line. And thinking of your gorgeous sons’ bodies the way all those bodies broke. Ugh — it’s too much.
But you know that it is, and that’s reflected in this poem, and in all your poems. Thank you for reminding us.
Beautiful poem. Your last line reminds the reader of how our physical strength and our physical weakness overlap each other.