SOUNDINGS
Things,
your black b-ball shoes,
loose-laced, open-tongued,
curse one corner;
your books, benched, titles turned down;
your trophy array, glitterings speechify
—steering far from the sirenic
roar of your closed room—
The tulips drip,
yellows slackening,
some randomly red-lined
with a quirky genetic scrawl,
into a drinking glass
you left …
Listen, all I can do
is endure for a word
in edgewise.
However I heave and haul,
the lines come back hooked empty.
So fuck it,
boots, shoes, shirts, books
Throw them all in
the hole in me,
landfill in
free fall
spiking off
the split bark of winter trees
down fire-escaped stories
through the uneasy laps of whitecaps,
to thud some sandy bottom
where you came to tossed rest.
Such depths, no fathoming?
Ahh, the tart music of “no fathoming” and “sirenic [irenic]” From these, I get the peace of drowning, following the sirens of grief into the charybdis of loss. Fine music to sharpen the pain, focus the loss.